Starting something new..!

Bonjour !

It has been a year since I last posted a post on this blog. Again, time flies...

Unlike last post where I sounded lost and miserable towards my life despite all those travelings, I am currently in a stage where my life is going to take a HUGE turn into path that I have never travelled before. After two years of grad school applications and putting in tons of effort, I have finally been accepted into a doctorate graduate program in US that I had applied to, with scholarship awarded. A pretty good and exciting news, after all this is what I have always wanted and have been working so hard to achieve it! 

But things are not always like how we had expected. Admittedly, I was very exciting when I first read the email on my admission offer, but what followed were simply disasters. The disasters started with explaining to others where is my school/nature and duration of the program, to passport renewal and visa application, to preparing and packing luggages. In fact, I have not even started to do my packing yet and I will be departing in 2 weeks time.

It is a mixed feeling for leaving one's hometown (where one has been living there for literally his whole life until now) to start a new life in a new environment with new culture and people. It might be scary for most people, and I always thought I will not have much problems in adapting and acculturating to new environment. However, I started to become wary as the time for me to leave gets nearer. At least for now, I am worried on pretty much everything e.g. the language, the friends, the professors, and even the foods!

As far as I could remember, I don't recall myself to be so worrying when I first moved to KL to continue my undergraduate education. It might be that the current moving is a bigger and more impactful one? Looking back to the posts that I wrote back then really does give me a sense of speechlessness. Especially my way of communicating in English, I did sounded a lot like my current students, since I was from Chinese education background.  

Mentioning my students, I really did enjoyed my 2 years+ experience working as a pre-university lecturer. I have met students of diverse variety, and some of them are now my friends who will exchange different opinions with me about life and other issues. My soft skills were improved as well, especially public speaking. At least I will not feel as fearful while speaking in front of 60+ people. From where else could one get such fabulous experiences? No where I would say. 

One last thing before ending my post. This is more of a reminder for myself to look back at this few years later and have a good laugh. Remember the one whom you have fell for? How is she doing? How did this episode end? All that I have to say now is: I am sorry that I disturb you.

Wishing myself tons of lucks!

Adulthood? Comme ci, comme ça

Bonjour tout le monde!

Time flies. It had been two years since I last blogged, when I just started my summer job in US.

Lots of things had happened within these 2 years, including both exciting and shitty ones. After my summer job, I had done some backpacking around the States and some European countries which those experiences had profound and significant affect on me even until today. 

Stepped into the 'real world' at the beginning of last year by involving in works related to teenage education, which I am still doing it until now. Got involved in some research works as well, and had applied to some postgraduate programs, which obviously I had failed in securing admission offer from those programs.

Life has been fun and exciting, coupled with some stresses and disappointments. Sometimes, with a sense of helplessness when I see myself to be lagging behind from the usual 'schedule'. Seeing others at my age getting married, having their first children as well as career promotion; had made me felt that I am defective where I am stuck at here going no where. These sense of hopelessness and defectiveness are further reinforced by the people around us, and by the society.

People around me have been defining success as earning lots money, get busy with daily life, have family and kids, and most importantly, own some assets like cars, houses etc. Let's face it, even the topics that are most frequently discussed among the friends are about rental, wages, kids and those of related; this is true regardless of which social circle I am interacting with.

Famous magazine would always listed the 100 most successful people according to their wealth. I have always wondered, couldn't those who have followed their passion, those who have helped others, and those who live a fulfilling and enlightened life considered as successful? Why don't we have some lists on those who have helped the most amount of people or those who have achieved their childhood dreams?

 

Well that's kind of impossible, seeing how materialistic our world is. A short reflection on my adulthood so far, and I am still enjoy it though. C'est la vie.

P.S. secure a postgraduate admission offer by this year!! Good luck.

思凡

 

郁闷

不知不觉，已经在这里过了一个礼拜。


凭良心讲，这在异乡的第一个礼拜并不如我想象中般的那么美好。

有些事情现在不做，一辈子都不会做了（一）

遇见。你

那天我无意间听到某电台播放这首歌。
好久没听到这首歌了。
可能年级大了感性，这是我第一次那么仔细的去听它的曲及了解它的词。
就这样，它让我想起了你，也想起了我们的相遇。